12:13am
xanga is not working right now...btw...trying out xanga for a bit incase you all were wondering were I went...not that anyone really reads this thing anyways....besides a couple of people haha!!

so its a friday night and i'm at home....taking a little break from studying....in a way thats bad....yes i'm not studying but at the same time its bad cuz that just means i have more time to think of things, that i really shouldn't be giving that much thought too....but what can you do?

I'm itching to talk to someone and I don't know why...but as my luck would have it....I can't.......they haven't been around for a few days...though it feels like more than that and its a bit weird...cuz usually...they're always around........I don't know why i'm feeling this way? can someone tell me why?

watched a bit of tv tonight...saw all the christmasy themed shows.....got me all in this christmasy mood...

i'm in such a missing mood....missing all my friends....missing being able to have nothing to worry about...missing how we all use to be......a friend whose been gone for a while is coming back pretty soon! haven't seen them in like forever....and for some reason...it feels like our conversations have been lacking ever since they've been gone.....from our conversations now....I can tell that they've changed a bit...haha

so yes....been talking to valley girl...wait...when do i not talk to valley girl?? haha...but all this talk.....is getting me all thinking haha....sometimes i get sick of all this talk about...games...hints....over analyzing.......so why is it that it keeps on coming up in our conversations?....sigh...

never get your hopes up seriously.....always hope for the worst....because if things don't turn out the way you were hoping they would....you won't be as disappointed as if you were expecting alot......

riiite..